September 1st

We will know on that day whether or not we will have another child in this family.  If we do not have a referral from Vietnam by then, they will close our file and return it to the United States.

The whole process, the irregularities in it and the United States Embassy statement are described well here.  I don't have the mental energy to summarize it now.  I'm just bereft of feelings... wanting to hope for the best, but having a feeling that this just isn't going to happen for us.  I'm just in this numb state of limbo. 

The fact that children are languishing in orphanages when they could have a loving family because of politics and greed sickens me.  The amount of money involved with this business is disgusting, and we're with an agency that doesn't bribe people and buy babies. 

If this doesn't work out, I'm done.  I don't have the emotional energy to do this again.